Birthday Blues

Turning 38 today and I've got a mean case of the blues. I saw a picture of myself at the beach on a day when I was feeling pretty good about myself, only to find out that I could have easily been mistaken for a beached whale. I had no idea how hideous I look until I saw the picture. I carry all my weight around my middle, so my stomach looks like this gigantic tumor on the front of my body. It just came as a shock because I don't feel anything like the person in the picture. If I didn't absolutely have to leave the house to work, I think I'd probably barricade myself inside so I never have to show myself out in public again. I can't believe this is what I've become. I feel completely hopeless and black.

Jen